Diabetical relationship

We had this conversation on last thursday, my coworker and I.
About relationship.

I was thinking, and always had this thought in my had that a longing to someone will make any relationship meaningful.
Let me give you some example, you had this someone so close to you that you meet them everyday, being sweet and nice to every single day, that they always be around you no matter what. You don't long for this person since they're always there for you... but, isn't it boring?
What will make such relationship meaningful?
What I had in my mind is, everybody needs a break.
So, to had a sense of longing to someone, at some point you need to stop seeing them for a while.
After that, then you'll feel that yearning, needing and also a meaning in someone's presence in your life.
Well, at least that's how I think.

I've seen a relation that had me felt diabetic.
It's like everytime you meet this person, then you cupcake-baby-honey-sweety pie-pumpkin them.
It's probably okay to someone else, but to me, I feel like a sensitive teeth poured and bathed with honey or maple syrup.
It had me, at some point, sick. Sick of sweetness.

It's okay, but it sounded so made up.
Maybe I'm just not the sweet type. I love and appreciate the person I cared for, but I had different ways showing them.

I'm not being judgemental here, it's just another study case about relationship.
And maybe I'm the one who's boring and suck.
But it's just me. :)

Mayan horoscope

Inspired by my friend Resti, she took the sign reading first and I'm curious about mine, so here it is...



You possess very strong emotions, which are sometimes so deep and intense that they take over your personality. At your worst, you may display compulsive and addictive behaviors, including abuse of power, sexual obsessions, drinking and use of drugs. On the positive side, however, these emotional drives can lead you into deep commitments and persistence in achieving goals.

Many Water personalities become artists who produce sounds and colors from their souls. But even if you are not an artist, you likely have a vision you will attempt to realize during the course of your life. You are also an extremist and you do nothing halfway, and these uncompromising traits push you toward a successful career. You have a strong, independent mind and are capable of solving your own problems. Although you may encounter initial struggles with handling responsibility, gaining control over your powerful feelings will bring out the leader within you.

So, may I conclude, I'm imaginative, emotional, drug addict, sex freak, abusive and an extremist.
Very interesting indeed.

Another change

Blogger had new template feature which made me trying and tweaking their new template. :P

Kinda think they're trying to make a better template layouts, like tumbler's.
It's great though. I'm having a hard time deciding which one to use.

Well, if I'm quite in the mood, I'll change it to something else.

For awhile, please enjoy my new template. :)

Faker

I've seen a lot in my life and I'm probably one of them.
In social life, related to manner or feelings or whatsoever you may say, you tend to maintain others feeling that you're trying to be nice.

I don't think it's right because in a way, you're creating a faker.
It's like you dealing with others not with you true intentions.

It's not like you said something is ugly when it is, you wouldn't want to hurt someone's feeling, right?
But, somehow, for me, knowing the true intention is a lot better than accepting a fake flattery.
I appreciate people who's being true to me.

At some point, I'm a heavyweight faker.
I do nice to people, maybe in some point hoping they'd be nice to me too.
Isn't it great to be nice to each other and probably the whole world would be a better place for you and for me?? Yeah, right...
We're all indirectly educated to be a faker.
It's like a savings for a favor. I do a favor for you, so that maybe in a distant or near future you might want to do a favor for me, just because...
I'm trying to be true right now. This may doesn't sounds good, but that's all I am.
Either you accept me, or just forget you ever knew me.
It's simple right? You could simply erase you knew a person just by forgetting.

Is white lie okay because you do it for a good cause?
To me it's still a lie. No matter how you put cherry on top and decorate it beautifully, but it's still a lie.
And probably I'm also a fool in the end, cause I'm buying it.

If I had chosen to trust someone, I'd had a blindfold on and I'd trust that person no matter what, until proven otherwise.
And I'm not a type of person who's easily ditched my friends. I'm a keeper, not a litterer.

Human minds is really complex.
We know what's good and what's bad. But either when you knew it would hurt you, you still buying it. At least that what happens to me.
I'm all self-injury, self-hurting, incidentally but regularly. My ignorance.