Faker

I've seen a lot in my life and I'm probably one of them.
In social life, related to manner or feelings or whatsoever you may say, you tend to maintain others feeling that you're trying to be nice.

I don't think it's right because in a way, you're creating a faker.
It's like you dealing with others not with you true intentions.

It's not like you said something is ugly when it is, you wouldn't want to hurt someone's feeling, right?
But, somehow, for me, knowing the true intention is a lot better than accepting a fake flattery.
I appreciate people who's being true to me.

At some point, I'm a heavyweight faker.
I do nice to people, maybe in some point hoping they'd be nice to me too.
Isn't it great to be nice to each other and probably the whole world would be a better place for you and for me?? Yeah, right...
We're all indirectly educated to be a faker.
It's like a savings for a favor. I do a favor for you, so that maybe in a distant or near future you might want to do a favor for me, just because...
I'm trying to be true right now. This may doesn't sounds good, but that's all I am.
Either you accept me, or just forget you ever knew me.
It's simple right? You could simply erase you knew a person just by forgetting.

Is white lie okay because you do it for a good cause?
To me it's still a lie. No matter how you put cherry on top and decorate it beautifully, but it's still a lie.
And probably I'm also a fool in the end, cause I'm buying it.

If I had chosen to trust someone, I'd had a blindfold on and I'd trust that person no matter what, until proven otherwise.
And I'm not a type of person who's easily ditched my friends. I'm a keeper, not a litterer.

Human minds is really complex.
We know what's good and what's bad. But either when you knew it would hurt you, you still buying it. At least that what happens to me.
I'm all self-injury, self-hurting, incidentally but regularly. My ignorance.