It has been a while...

It has been a while since the last time I give myself a chance to look around.
Paying attention into small things.

It has been a while since the last time I saw the river at the back of my house clear enough for me to see the bottom.

It has been a while since I enjoyed sunset view in my house when most of the time I've spent is always outside the house.

But sunsets always unpredictable.
Sometimes you can just encounter a lot more beautiful one outside.
It's just a matter whether you're paying attention or not.

When I see sunset in my house today, it feels like I'm in a foreign place.
I don't feel familiar in my own home.
A place that suppose to be a place where you spent most of your time.
But now, it's nothing but a place for you to only spent the nights.

You're never home during the days, unless on weekends or special occasions.
How much I missed the time when I can do anything at home.
Spending the days with people who is dear to you.

I was looking at the river this afternoon.
It's about 6.
Blue is what I see. The sky, the lights.
Feels so magical,
and the sun's already set.