Disconnected

It so often lately that I found myself daydreaming while I'm talking to others.

It's bothering me. I think that's impolite.

Because I'm not really there when they talking to me.

My mind simply wandered somewhere else.

Once, my friend talks to me about her life, how'd she doing at the office...

and I'm thinking about plans, how I'd do my job tomorrow...

How I'd deal with this issue, that issue, etc...

I still listened to her, but only partial.

And when I wandered off too far inside my thought,

I'd stop and back again with some lag, left-out.

After that, all I can say is,"Sorry, what was that?"

I feel guilty.

Because only for a simple task of a friend to listened to what others had to share, I'd done terrible.

I'm not there.

Maybe I'd did it on purpose.

Maybe I'm just bored with what they had to say,

so I'd try to run away to something more appealing?

If it only happened once in a while, it wouldn't be any concern.

But it happened a lot lately. Too many times.

I think it's becoming a habit. *oh, no*

How is it to make your mind straight? Focused?

Just be there.

I need more exercise.

I need focus.

I feel terrible and disconnected from the real world at the same time.