Odd dreams

Despite all of the sudden burst of changes I did to myself in the matter of my appearance, I do feel a lot of insecurity doing it.

But I am just that spontaneous.
Suddenly, I want to cut my hair.
Change my hairstyle to something "different" one day.
Then another day, I feel like polishing my nail.
And I did it.
Then another day, I feel like shaping my eyebrows.
And I did it.
Then another day, I feel like coloring my hair...
I haven't done this one yet...

What's with the sudden change?
I don't know...
Just feel like doing it, now.
Now or never.

So yesterday, I got this dream... which is weird to me.
I just hanging around with some friends, and there he is.
He's there too, being a part of the people I'm hanging out with that day,
Looks like it's the first time he saw my new haircut.
He touch my hair *the tail part to be exact* once and twice, on a different occasion.
It seems he liked it.

After I woke up, I suddenly feel so wrong with this haircut.
I suddenly lost all my confidence.
And I questioned myself, am I being so flirty lately?
Shoot, I'm a girl, isn't it okay to be flirty?
but with all of this sudden change...
It's never my intention to be flirty, I swear!
I just need a change.
Can I have a change without being judged?
Cause it's traumatized me when I did some changes, but then you so-called flirty...
It happened... once, twice, whatever.

So, the whole point is I also wondering what's up with me lately...
Maybe I'm just too bored of things that I started the changes from myself first??